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Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
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Well, like everyone else has said, I do miss this community. I can't believe it's been three years since I joined. It was a wonderful place to express one's thoughts. Haven't found anything quite like this ever since.
Location: Oceandust
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
2
I miss this site a lot, too. It's been 2 years since I've last visited... Too bad I can't see my own profile anymore...
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
1
I'd be at a disadvantage because having connections means having people on your side, people who would be willing to support you because of what they could possibly get in return.

Nice :)
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
0
Thank you.

Better to ramble than to have nothing to say at all, which is the sort of state I often get in.
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
1
What does it mean to not play their game? If I don't, won't I be at a disadvantage?

Haha, yes. Pink is my favourite colour!
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
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I hope I meet people like that, too. To me, right now it just seems like there is a continuous path of pretending and deceiving to achieve "success." Doesn't it only get worse from here?

Oh, it's certainly not intruding. I welcome different thoughts so that perhaps, my own can change.
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
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Some call it their “spark.” Others call it inspiration, their will to live.

Anyhow, I don’t remember exactly when I first lost mine. It must have been during my middle school days, when I matured mentally and began to understand and learn about humans.

Humans, you see, are terribly selfish creatures. Perhaps they were misrepresented throughout my life, as I go to a private school for kids considered "smart" (who are usually rich, with bigwigs for parents, and consequently are influenced by their ways) but I can safely assume that a vast majority of the world's population of humans possess this horrible trait.

Going to this school, I began to learn the truth. I began to learn that nobody actually cares. That a fair amount of things people say are complete bull. That beneath all of the drama and laughter and friendship lies a whole load of
fake, fake, fake.

And I, being the adaptive human that I am, began to adopt these people's ways. I don't want to be selfish. I want to have friends who honestly care about me and wouldn't betray me for their own benefit. But because apparently nobody I know in real life has those sentiments, I have to be like them. Be smarter. Be stronger. Be a little more selfish.

But doing all of those things takes away my "spark." I don't have anything except for material and monetary goals to live for anymore. I don't want to live like this, but at the same time, if I tried not to, I would only be used.

For now, the only thing worthwhile that I can hope to attain is knowledge.

(I apologize for my negativity.)
Location: Nirvanesthesia
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
0
Ah, I see!

Unfortunately, school is taking over my life. :P I felt that my tulpa was there, but eventually he disappeared.

Oh well, I may try again in the summer when I'm not so occupied!
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
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Holy crap, your art is amazing. I hope to draw faces as well as you do someday.
Keep up the good work! :)
Location: Hyphero
SEI 5w6 9w1 3w2 SxSp RLOEI IAS MelancholicPhlegmatic
Nirvanesthesia
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Frozen is indeed a wonderful movie, with some catchy songs. c: "Let It Go" was stuck in my head for days.

You guys watched it in SPANISH class? xD I wish we did that!