Chance Glance!

Nekocchi
23 Slovakia INFP
A girl who got lost in a nightmare and, using her own blood, she tried to change it into paradise.
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I’m shy, awkward and clumsy. Short somehow-human who loves to hug people but is mostly too insecure to do so. So, cuddles dogs and cats instead.

Likes

Physical affectionCatsBritish TV showsNatureBunnies

Dislikes

MisunderstandingsJerksFightsResponsibilitiesStress

Comment History

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Location: Rayman
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Hello, Ray! It’s nice to see you, to ‘hear a familiar voice’ again after such a long time!

That being said, I am sorry you are going through something like that! It sounds like a very difficult time period for you, but I hope – no, I am sure – you will be able to pull through and figure it all out!

The line between a child and an adult is tricky. I myself sometimes feel like I am acting too childishly, like I should be different, like I need to be different, because otherwise I am doing something wrong. Other times, I just feel simply inadequate, like everyone else already has things long figured out, like they all have skills and experience and knowledge, all the while I am standing still, looking around with big eyes of a lost kid…

These are probably different to your situation… But the thing about adults that no one really tells you is, nobody knows what they are doing. Everyone has a story of their own, and there is not one without a scratch, a dent, a full-blown hole in it.

Anyway, this is not what I originally wanted to say.

I know a thing or two about self destruction and self punishments, and those things aren’t good… But I think you know that, too. Knowing never stops us, eh? Because it’s all deeper and more complicated than that…
Despite that, let me say that I hope you can forgive yourself for not being perfect, or not finding yourself yet.
I hope that you can take a step back, and take a deep breath.
That you can tell yourself it is okay not to know, it is okay to take your time, it is okay to make it a slow journey.
It’s fine to be confused, or unsure, or different from what people expect.
Be kind to yourself, even – or especially – when no one else is. You deserve it <3


I miss this place and the guys from here, too. Including you.

You are important, and valuable, and you are going to be alright. May your days become sunnier and happier from here onwards. <3
Location: Nekocchi
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I know nobody is really around anymore, but I feel like I need to say this here, even if it would fall into nothingness and disappear as an unheard echo...:

Merry Christmas, everyone! I hope you'll have nice remaining days of this year, and even nicer next year.

I hope you're all doing well. <3
Location: Colanopy
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Hiya.

I haven't opened the site in a long time, but it's still something that carries a lot of sentiment and feeling of safety for me and on a whim I open it every now and then (with no result, of course, since it's quiet here)... So I can relate to that.
I still feel it's a shame this site has ended this way, and I still find it to be precious, even after it's been abandoned. It was a nice, soothing place indeed.
Location: Nekocchi
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Stray steps and an abandoned, quiet place.

Somehow, for some reason, I keep coming back here. Without saying a word, with an incoherent hope for... what?

Maybe it is one of those 'old habits die hard' things. Maybe it's because I poured out a piece of me here, and now I will forever be drawn to return. Maybe I miss all the people and their genuinity that surrounded this place. (And maybe it's maybelline.)

This was a safe-house, a light over the stormy seas, calling forth the people weary of outside life and the weights in their soul.

A lot in my life has changed - or at least it feels like that. I've changed. I'm still a short person riddled with fears, who has no idea how to adult and makes many mistakes. Yet, I'm different than I was when I actively used this place. And I would like to hope that the other guys who came here, the troubled people, got that bit of a change, too. That small push towards a lighter place.



Things aren't infinitely better, but I'd like to think that my way of looking at them is clearer and a tad brighter, if nothing else. And... it feels good to know that I am no longer in that pitch black place, crying every night, head filled with images of suicide.

Sun is shining outside, and things hurt and make me scared, but I will be alright.

I hope you will be, too.
Location: Oceandust
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I don't think that is likely to happen, unfortunately. It would be nice to have it fully back, though. I can imagine it would wake up back to some activity then, restore a little bit to what it used to be... I guess we all miss it ^^;
Location: Rayman
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I'd be up for it, too, I think. I miss this place...
Location: Nekocchi
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Location: ! The Batter
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Since I seem to be drawn to random quizzes on the internet, when I saw this one, I went ahead and did it as well ^^;;

My results:
Hufflepuff 86%
Ravenclaw 70%
Gruffindor 54%
Slytherin 35%

"It looks like you're a Hufflepuff! Some of your most defining characteristics are your compassion, loyalty, and devotion to other people. If you want an even more detailed description of your personality, take a look at which house you scored the second-highest in. If that's Gryffindor, you're a very inclusive and friendly individual who always strives to be there for others. If it's Ravenclaw, you're a serene, easygoing individual with a hidden eccentric side. Finally, if it's Slytherin, you possess a strong sense of duty and strive to always be loyal to what you believe in."
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I wonder what does this say about me... I'm sincerely surprised at the high number for Ravenclaw, because I don't see myself as very analytical person - I was never good with math or physics or anything of this sort. (Although the quiz says that if Ravenclaw is second highest, it means "serene, easygoing individual with a hidden eccentric side"... hmm...)
I wish I was better at evaluating myself, so I could actually tell how much that fits or not... ^^;;
Otherwise, I think Hufflepuff is very me owo
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It's not all about breaking rules. Attitude counts too. It was because of things you had written, and your following behaviour.