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2017

on 3605 Roots

3605 Thoughts

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Shadow
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I think I am starting to die from the inside, not quite sure am I hating myself so much that it hurts to think, or is it that I am just rotting/shutting down from my core.

But putting aside these thoughts, I just finished the light novel "Welcome to NHK!", and I think I like this book a lot more than most other light novels that I read. It's just...... different from others, and I found this to be an interesting read. I listened to the anime opening and feel that it was fitting to the book.

Thinking about it, I haven't dropped a single tear out of sadness for a long time, and I feel like I am that close in getting very angry and sad in school. For the first few times I can still hold it, but I am not sure how long can I hold my emotions anymore, it just hurt so much.....
I am sorry I am saying this in such a time in the site, but oddly the events that happened how, even I just came only a few months, is starting to affect my emotions a lot more than I thought it would be, and the insecurity and loneliness that I sometimes feel here is causing me to become more.... fragile and sad, I am not even sure myself anymore? Just that from what I seen and talked from others, this site was a site where perhaps I could find comfort in.

Perhaps this post is too odd in nature, I don't really know what to say about it.
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Talindra
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Talindra
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Ryoukai
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This is foxface speaking...

I guess this place is dying or dead, seeing that it has almost been a week since my last post yet no one else has posted. I guess it's for the best if people here don't feel safe anymore.

It would be sad to see this place go but it's not like I haven't been on a site that closed down before. It would just be a shame.

I'm not planning to leave yet, not until the time it actually closes. Not that there's anything to do but simply because I like this place. Feel a little bit sentimental about the place while trying to come into terms that it really is going.

But of course, it's not definite that this place will close. Just feels that way. Didn't mean to make it sound so depressing. Sorry 'bout that. ^^;;
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Ryoukai
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This is Foxface speaking.

The new school term is near and I'm already an incoming third-year college student. I feel a bit anxious because I'm also the incoming president for the organization of psychology students. Hopefully, I can carry my role well.

I think I should also start thinking about where to go for on-the-job experiences. And figuring out how to actually get a job. I could ask for a bit of help but I'm not entirely sure who to go to.

I'm more concerned about appearances and dress codes than resumes and interviews. There's the whole 'I'm going to have to give up a bit of comfort for this thing' part, particularly skirts and heels, along with makeup (if needed). I've never been one to wear those types of things.

I'm sure I can get past this but for the time being, I guess I just can't help but be anxious ^^;;

That's it for now, I guess. Originally, I was supposed to post something about lying that I was thinking about but I'm trying to break the habit of falling back to that topic. Maybe I'll post it if I really can't help myself.

Anyway, thanks for reading and hope you all have a good day! ^^
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This is Foxface speaking. This is just me recounting what happened and what I felt. It's long so going to hide it in a spoiler tag. Why I felt the need to share it is simply just because I wanted someone to know about it.

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Shadow
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I think I am starting to feel lonely.
My emotional problems are coming back, I often feel like I am starting to lose control over both my mind and body, I can't seem to stop violent thoughts from popping into my mind, and I feel like I am starting hear screams and anger from my own mind. I started distancing myself from my classmates, and I have to go to school everyday, feeling angry and pain in the heart for my uselessness and my inability to uphold my own responsibility as a student.
And I find that I can't really find anyone to talk with, bot in my life, but not on this site either. Its not because you guys feeling apathy for my situation, but I just can't seem to find anyone that I can talk with.

I am Sorry. Thinking about this post again,
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Talindra
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