Chance Glance!

22 Slovakia INFP
A girl who got lost in a nightmare and, using her own blood, she tried to change it into paradise.
I’m shy, awkward and clumsy. Short somehow-human who loves to hug people but is mostly too insecure to do so. So, cuddles dogs and cats instead.


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Moonsoul 19 United States INFP 259 134C
Wow it's been a while. Activity's super low. But it's 2 Am and I guess this is a good place to ramble. My mind's been going miles a minute for a long time. There is no partucular motive behind my rambling.

I graduated high school 3 months ago. Finally. I'm so relieved. No matter how much people told me I'd miss it, I seriously doubt I will. The only nostalgia I get is from a drifting friendship that's been wavering for years. Now I finally think I'm too far to recover much. There's no real reason we drifted, it just happened. I feel guilty sometimes and blame myself, or wonder if I did something wrong. But that's a whole different story, so for now I'm done crying about it, and just need to accept that close friends will drift away. She's going to the same college as me, so I'll get to at least see she's doing ok. I'll just be cautious and keep my distance. Sometimes I wonder if I offended her.

I signed up for my college classes for this fall. I got two art classes, and a writing and math class. I'm excited for it. I want to try to be able to develop confidence and communication with people. I want to make new friends. I have two close friends, but sometimes I feel like I need a new perspective. I've been growing mentally lately, with confidence. Usually when I've tried to grow in confidence in the past, I would stop and backtrack out of fear of my confidence turning to selfishness. But I've been watching people that seem confident but not selfish, so I hope to follow their role.

I've also been thinking alot about intelligence and IQ level. As well as emotional intelligence. I really want to get on a higher mental state, because I know the whole "use it or lose it" thing where it can be harder to expand your mind as you get older, so now would be my time to work on it. I took an IQ test, but Although my score was a bit above average, I still want to see how much more I can go. This is fueled on ambition I guess. Like trying to level a character in a video game.

I've spent my summer by watching alot of anime. I know it's not the best sounding Idea, especially if I want to expand mentally, but some of the things I've been watching are pretty facinating. Like the kinds of stories with enough symbolism and background to have been created by an artistic genius. That's a spot where I'd like to be some day. Like creating complex things and stories. That'd be pretty satisfying.

Well... Thanks if you read that. I could probably go on and on, because I haven't written a thought here in months. But this is getting long. And I'm getting tired.
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Activity is really low, so I doubt I'll get a response but...
How do I tell a girl that I like her?
I've never done it before... So... I could use some help.
A lot of help.
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Ryoukai 20 Philippines INTP 549 28C
This is foxface speaking.

It's been a while since I last posted. I didn't really have anything to post, other than getting stressed out with school and getting depressed to the point that I couldn't sleep well at night.

It's very distressing when you're not used to specific situations, mainly social ones. You question why some things have to be done when they seem meaningless.

guess I'm just not used to things. Wish I could resign from being an officer. Too bad I can't. :/

Sorry for the slightly sad thought.
Aww... Crap.
I think I might be falling in love again.
I'm not ready yet.
I need more time.
Eugh. Feelings are weird and very inconvenient as it turns out.
Pseudo, please don't let this place die!
Most of the people I had contact with already left, but I still want to stay.

Please fix this and people will start coming back.
Don't give up just because of one hacker!
This is your site, YOUR community!!
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19 United States INFP 415 60C
Wow. It has been a while. Does anyone remember me? Haha. Anyway, I like to think I've grown to be more mature and emotionally stable since my last post, even if it has been only a year. I wish that I could delete everything I posted on here before. I've made my posts private, but they still show for me. I wish they didn't. I'm avoiding reading them because I know they'll just make me feel awful. I was in such a weird state back then... But! I know now that everything happens for a reason, so I don't get as depressed when it seems like everything is all wrong.

A lot has changed. I finished my senior year. I got into my dream college and in September I'm going to be going to a school in a town that is familiar, but far away from this place. A fresh start sounds amazing...! I'm going to be a bit more open and try to make good friends and wonderful memories.

I'm not sure how often I'll be around on this website. I used to come on and off and promise to be super active, but I could never live up to it, so this time I won't promise even though I'd like to. Still, I think I'll drop by every so often. I can't wait to see how this community has changed during that year I missed. :)
School ended, and my rage stopped when I cried and screamed in school. I feel at peace now, I guess.
Rewriting my book is hard. There's parts that I remember liking a lot, but can't remember word for word.
So most of my "writing" now is me banging my head against the wall and screaming "Damn it! I already wrote this!"