Chance Glance!

Nekocchi
22 Slovakia INFP
A girl who got lost in a nightmare and, using her own blood, she tried to change it into paradise.
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I’m shy, awkward and clumsy. Short somehow-human who loves to hug people but is mostly too insecure to do so. So, cuddles dogs and cats instead.

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Moonsoul
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Moonsoul 19 United States INFP 259 134C
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Juraventure
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I messaged an old friend, well a friend that I lost and then found again. It sort of stemmed from conversation and me telling a person maybe talk to an old friend. I know things that can make my life better but I just don't do those things. So I guess since I said it out loud it made me think of myself for a bit and told myself that since you said it, you should follow up on it. And so I did.

From the start of the conversation he confessed to me that he was avoiding me throughout the entire school year. He apologized for acting in such way and hadn't had the courage to tell me this until, I suppose I messaged him. I started crying. He told me the reason why he avoided me was he didn't want to be sad like me. And I imagine that's the reason why he changed classes. And I guess it's been over a year since that incident occurred. I still remember the date.

So we caught up for a little bit and I guess I'll be meeting him tomorrow for lunch to catch up some more in person. I'm still a bit teary-eyed but... erm... it's nice...
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Prabe
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I accept people the way they are, be genuine and kind to them.
because I know that someday they would do the same for me.
I know that some people think I am stupid for doing this, but I don't care because this is what I believe in.
I know that not everyone would do the same for me, but it's okay.
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CruxCrusis 24 United States ISTP 621 15C
Wow it has been a long time since I've been able to write here again. So much has happened, I'm having trouble figuring out where to start. Okay well I guess i should start at the most important event that has greatly changed my life for the better. I have finally found someone, That's right I am now in a relationship. (I know I'm still wrapping my head around it myself) and it has been a truly wonderful experience. We have been together for going on five months now and it has been among the best months of my life, without a doubt. But with this grand turn of events, issues and differences have followed. For a majority of my life I have found my personal space (my home, my room etc.) to be my place of solace. A sanctuary of peace, a reprieve from the social world, ie. family gatherings, school, and work. But now that I am involved with someone, I am sharing this space that used to be my own and it is a little weird getting used to it. Don't get me wrong I love my girlfriend to death but it is just strange to have her in a place that I have used for the longest time as an escape from the judgement and roles of the social world. I love her though so I am willing to work around the weirdness until I can get a handle on it.
On another note. I have also finally landed myself a good paying steady job........ after going through one of the worst bouts of job seeking I have ever had the misfortune to undergo. Long story short, I had to go through four different jobs in the last nine months, that is more jobs I have had to go through in more than five years. It was insane, but the upside is I learned a great deal about the wonderful world of social economic disparity and how I never wish to experience it ever again. I also learned how to better deal with people as a whole and how to defuse situations before they get out of hand, instead of falling back on my old bad habit of trying to explain everything and make the person knows what is true and what is a load of crap. Instead I have learned to Quote "Smile and Wave" and it has really done wonders for my career.
Well I would love to talk more but Duty calls until next time my friends.
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Juraventure 19 United States INFP 592 24C
It feels like people still come here for something yet no thoughts or content is actually being created. I feel like I'm bad with words because I don't feel like using 'we' because I don't feel like I'm speaking for anyone. So I guess I feel that people come here still looking for connections? Or find some remnants of something to salvage of what was? I could start with what's been up with me.

Well I guess I've gotten a bit better at communicating over the internet. I actually have had an art page on Facebook for more than a year and I guess I've been regularly posting my work and slowly growing my skills. And it's also a personal blog? what is a blog? Just a place where a person puts down their thoughts on something? Well, if you want to see it I guess just reply or PM me and I'll link the page. I'm also currently doing the Inktober drawing event.
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Smirk 18 Mexico ISFJ 146 11C
I feel so lost right now, I forgot which people I trust and which I don't. I kind of just want to go to sleep and not wake up until whatever it is that is making me 'lose it' goes away.
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Falco
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Smirk 18 Mexico ISFJ 146 11C
I don't get it. The few close people that I know are always up and ready to help me (because I always seem like I am either sad, depressed or whatever [And I guess I am to a certain extent, but I've learned to deal with it]) However, now that I feel as though as if I am about to enter a crisis, they just, kind of, disappear. Now, I am not about to disregard all their attempts in fixing what, to their eyes, needs fixing, although it doesn't necesarilly does, but why is it that, at the first signs of cracks, they disappear completely from my life, as though as if I wasn't someone they've known for a year and then some? I guess I'll have to go through this alone. Again.
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Words... here are words... this is typing... I'm a terrible typist? Typer? tap tap tap... I like writing. It doesn't have to be poems or stories. It feels more natural and the sound of pen to paper. I guess it's the same as drawing. Just me rambling so I get comfortable? I don't know.

Well... I guess I get um... well I'm more comfortable with some sort of instant messaging because it's somewhat quicker and get more... It doesn't make me think as long as if I post something down because I get some sort of response that I can identify with. And I suppose that people like face to face because of hand gestures and voice pitches and facial expressions. I don't know... I'm more nervous and anxious with the typing of stuff and... I guess an upside or something I don't know. Just typing down what I'm thinking right now.

Um... I'm connecting to uh... I just want to not be all scared for some reason. Like there's no reason to be scared because of the voidness of something. The uh.. lackness of people? There isn't any immediate threat I guess? Or anything physical. My dumb ol brain. And I guess thoughts are weird in a way because I'm thinking I don't want to be all anxious and scared over the internet because it's possibly.. um.. I guess something easy? Um... words. uh.. I don't want to be anxious but then I guess that would be out of my 'comfort' zone. And then my brain would say do you really want that? And then I'd be like contemplating on it for a while but then I'm like quiet you brain. Stop making fake stuff.

Is this reading unfocused? Because um... uh... ... I guess I use the triple thoughts for when I'm making pauses. Like in The Declaration of Independence where they drew a colon and a line to signify how long to pause when giving a speech. So.. I guess not confident in myself to just put art in the internet and join a community or something to find I guess a person. And I guess help me in a way for being more comfortable typing and getting better at art.

I don't know. I felt like I wanted this string of words or I don't know what I'm typing. I guess trying to help with activity too? There were other times I wanted to write something but my brain being all poopy and then distracting myself from wanting to do it.