Chance Glance!

18 Australia INFJ
I really enjoy fantasy, and things that can take me to a new world. Magical things and places like waterfalls and rainforests are some of my favourite things.




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Eisen Herz
This place is dead, but in a way. That makes it appealing. Because death is as beautiful as life.

I am here, to remember. To review my past posts, and know who I once was. Because I have forgotten. The saddest thing is; I once feared never being remembered. I viewed it as a Sin to forget people, to forget the things they've done or told me. Yet, I forgot myself some where a long the way.

My greatest wish right now, would be to go back through my life, and write down everything people told me. Remember everything Humanity was, to me. If I could hold all the memories of Humanity, so nothing, so no person, is forgotten or left behind. I would, love nothing more.

This post is a recollection, a statement, and a pilgrimage to who I once was, as Human being.

To those who remember me, and stumble upon this place once more; I am no longer intelligent. I am no longer creative. I have no more artistic skills. I have no more poetry. I am no longer strong willed. I am nothing that I was once before.

But today, I have wisdom. I have experience, from building my life, even if it is gone today. I shall use that wisdom, and that experience, to build something new. Tomorrow.

Thus, I shall let go of this place once and for all. A final echo on the wind. My only wish, is that you do the same. But never forget the brilliant lights of those people, you met here. Never forget.
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Fallen Lily
"This course was created and then abandoned by humans. They tend to do that, create something wonderful and then abandon it."
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EII 6w5 1w2 2w1 RCOAI IAS PhlegmaticMelancholic
18 Australia INFJ 612 28C
Hello, hi!!

Is anyone still attached to this site? I still have this bookmarked on my new tab page and check every so often...
It feel like it still retains it's soothing, comfortable environment..
SEI RLOAN PhlegmaticMelancholic
Stray steps and an abandoned, quiet place.

Somehow, for some reason, I keep coming back here. Without saying a word, with an incoherent hope for... what?

Maybe it is one of those 'old habits die hard' things. Maybe it's because I poured out a piece of me here, and now I will forever be drawn to return. Maybe I miss all the people and their genuinity that surrounded this place. (And maybe it's maybelline.)

This was a safe-house, a light over the stormy seas, calling forth the people weary of outside life and the weights in their soul.

A lot in my life has changed - or at least it feels like that. I've changed. I'm still a short person riddled with fears, who has no idea how to adult and makes many mistakes. Yet, I'm different than I was when I actively used this place. And I would like to hope that the other guys who came here, the troubled people, got that bit of a change, too. That small push towards a lighter place.

Things aren't infinitely better, but I'd like to think that my way of looking at them is clearer and a tad brighter, if nothing else. And... it feels good to know that I am no longer in that pitch black place, crying every night, head filled with images of suicide.

Sun is shining outside, and things hurt and make me scared, but I will be alright.

I hope you will be, too.
I figured it out. Soul Tome on Facebook is up!
It's a closed group so you'll have to send a request, but I check Fb a couple of times a day so it shouldn't take long.

I'm surprised hadn't thought of this earlier... But does anyone want to continue Soul tome as a private group on Facebook?
I know a lot of you don't use it, but it's just a thought.
I miss this site a lot. It always did have so much potential. So Tobias literally just abandoned the entire thing without even attempting to fix our profiles or raise security when the hacker incident happened almost a year ago?
EII 6w5 1w2 2w1 RCOAI IAS PhlegmaticMelancholic
18 Australia INFJ 612 28C
I still really love soultome!! Random thoughts:
How do you become natural at things like small talk and everyday actions? I struggle with small talk if it's with people I don't know extremely well, and sometimes I have no idea how to do simple things like walking!!

I'm still in school, so there are so many times when teachers appear with a "hi, how are you" and I can only ever respond with a awkward "uh good." or an "ah,.... hi". It always feels extremely forced and awkward whenever I try to respond/hold a conversation, and I wish I could give a good confident answer. I usually watch my friends and try to learn how they respond, since it seems like it's an automatic and easy thing for some of them.

Also walking - I never know what to do with my hands! They just kind of flop around and I don't know where to put them! It feels really unnatural for me to just put them into my pockets, or to just let them flop, so I sometimes just hold me elbows which also looks pretty unnatural in general. I feel like I look like an idiot sometimes, but oh well!

It'd be nice if this site would be more active :)
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Juraventure 19 United States INFP 592 24C
What is on my mind? Well... A lot of people got on when there was a new thought in the Feed. I just keep thinking what are we looking for? Why do we still come here? eh... I don't know.

I kinda want to talk about art. I'm like struggling with myself of why don't I like my art anymore? So I had a quick look at my old sketches and thought about what I did. I used to watch Youtube videos of artists and somewhat getting on the background knowledge of how they went. So I thought to myself, why don't I pick this up and do this again?

I'm in the middle of watching a video by Sycra Yasin and uh he's talking about his art struggles. And he's talking about his journey with his friend bobmeatbag because they worked together for many years. Bob brought up a point about your relationship with art. That got me thinking about my unhappiness with it and being very hard on myself to a point where it's not fun. So maybe I guess I'm a month late to uh pick on the tips Colanopy, Moonsoul, and Shadow. I remember I was having fun looking back, though it was hard. I do think a lack of focus of what I want to do with art and having this extreme thought, something of having to do with the only way for my life to work is something with art.

Oh yeah... they also talked about environment. Bob talked about he was pretty much a doodler and thought that going to animation school would be a chore and very taxing to him because he wasn't all that serious with doing art. He found out that it was work, but it's manageable and that you are put into a mindset of working and learning. So I also find that being at home is really hard for me to draw because I don't like drawing in my room because it makes me feel lazy and so I draw at the computer which is in the living room. So then there's people and yeah...

I did however signed up for a class. There is this art studio a couple miles from where I live and I basically walk past it everyday. It was after like 3 or 4 months of actually deciding to go there once I just found out what time classes were. So the class is basically everyone is younger than me but that's okay I guess. And I guess it made me see that I do have some skill when it comes to drawing. I donno... sort of there for the environment. I like it.
Oh yeah, don't know is this quite late(it is), but.......